My spanking mojo, that is.
My newest theory is that this is peri-menopausal crap. That one burst of it returning was around ovulation, so maybe it’s related to hormones? When I was lactating, all sex disgusted me. With this hormonal shift, maybe it’s just my fetishes? I really wish I had answers. If anyone else has answers about disappearing and reappearing kinks and fetishes, let me know.
In other news, if I don’t get laid soon, I think I may lose my mind. I have no prospects and no hope of prospects. If you know where all the great single, sober, smart, kind, loving, fat-accepting middle-aged heterosexual (or bisexual or pansexual) men of Central Texas are hiding, please let me know that, too.